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| We'd only see wat we wanna see and believe wat we want to believe,
and it works~
We lied to ourselves so much... that after a while, the lies start to seem like a truth......
We deny so much... We deny we r indenial...
RITE, watever... u may just keep ur feelings to urself...
I DUN GIVE A DAMN | | |
| Dear all,
THX for all the emails, offline msgs, SMS, and fone calls...
I AM OKAY 
XOXO,
Jean
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| U r eatin breakfast with ur family. Ur daughter spills coffee on ur business shirt. U hv no control over wat just happened.
Wat happens next, however, will be determined largely by how u react...
After scoldin' ur daughter, u turn to ur wife and criticize her for placin' the cup too close to the edge of the table. A short verbal battle follows. U storm upstairs and change ur shirt. Back downstairs u find ur daughter has been too busy cryin' to finish breakfast and get ready for skool. She misses the bus. Ur wife must leave immediately for work. U rush to drive ur daughter to skool and pick up a speedin' ticket along the way. At skool, ur daughter runs into the bldg. without sayin' gdbye. U arrive at the office 20 mins late, discoverin' that u've forgotten ur briefcase. When u go home that evening, u find a small wedge in ur relationship with ur wife and daughter... 
WHY?
Becoz of how u reacted that morning.
Here's wat could hv happened...
The coffee splashes all over u, but this time u gently say, "It's okay, honey; u just need to be more careful next time." Grabbin' a new shirt and ur briefcase, u change in time to look through the window and see your child gettin' on the bus. U arrive 5 mins early at work, cheerfully greetin' ur colleagues... 
Two entirely different outcomes, both dependent on ur reaction.
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| "The world's filled with unlikely frenship, that to the casual observers, it makes absolute no sense at all...
But if we look closer, we can see why these alliances form.
After all, the shared purpose can give even mortal enemies a common ground..."
The unlikely frenship begins...
With 1 person desperately in need and another willin' to give a helpin' hand,
With such kindness offered, we r finally able to see the worth of those we hv previously written on...
And before we know it, a bond's formed, regardless if others can understand... | | |
| By lookin' back, there's nth else but only REGRET -
regret my every stupid decision,
regret the very poor self-restriction,
regret that I letted many precious chances slipped away rite in front of my face without catchin' them at all,
regret that I was doin' nth while time flies like flash,
regret not being loyal to ppl who love me a lot - I lied, I ignored, I betrayed them - I was just a horrible selfish bitch,
regret that I wasn't focused enough and being distracted by hell lotta
tiny silly things ppl dun even think it's anything big BUT the stupid
little me considered myself workin' on sth extraodinary,
regret being... irresponsible......
So far for my 21 yrs of life, I had been livin' like a pile of shit...
I never knew wat I really wanna be,
I blamed the others treatin' me as if I were Ms Cellophane
I didn't truly trust any1,
I thought every1 is better than me no matter wat - IQ, EQ, personality, etc..
I SIMPLY HATE MYSELF...
and tonite, while I was sitting in front of the TV finished eatin'
orange and waitin' my mum to fetch the empty plate to the kitchen......
All of a sudden I felt like a retarded living like rubbish...
Human beings live in community,
every act we take and every word we say - these r wat we hv to be responsible for...
and so as the ppl around us and our own selves, that we hv to take the
responsibility - the obligation to feel gd abt ourselves, and the
obligation to make our loved 1s proud.
It's time for another change, it's time to put an end to the past that shouldn't be looked back...
It's time to be a responsible person - I made myself like a disaster and I'm gonna free myself from it...
I'm still young with plenty of time available -
enough for me to correct the wrong, and start over a brand new page.
The curiousity makes me wonder how far that I can go,
and how much that I've inherited from my brillant dad and mum, and from the carin' and education of my beloved Dr. Dad...
I wanna be as gd as them...
...yea... just like them........... :)
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